You’ve heard by now that former president Donald Trump is facing 91 felony charges in four separate criminal indictments. Take a moment. Breathe. Let that sink in. Like many Americans, I was raised to feel a healthy skepticism towards the U.S. political system, its representatives, and the myriad ways that power is used, abused, and flows asymmetrically through our government. The cliché notions that “all politicians lie” and that “all presidents break the law” are baked into our culture. But on a day-to-day basis, do we imagine that our politicians, no matter how unscrupulous or cynical, are committing actual, criminal, go-to-prison crimes? Crimes that result in a trip down to the local courthouse? Nah.

Yet here we are, with a former president entering and exiting courthouses across the country. He’s getting arraigned, pleading not guilty, and awaiting trial dates like someone on Law & Order (or like the estimated one in three Americans who have some type of criminal record). It’s beyond disappointing—after all, presidents are supposed to represent the best of what our country has to offer—and so we should find it utterly and completely surreal.